So, this is really it.
We’re really down to the final homestretch and just like Yeonjae who has a heavy feeling in her heart while watching the days of her life tick away, I too have the same feeling of burden weighing deep in my chest over the fact that a few days from now i would have to say goodbye to this drama that has meant a lot to me.
Perhaps, it is the underlying story in this show that had ingrained it into my consciousness more than that of others.
It might be due to the fact that it deals with things that are all familiar and dear to all of us like life, death and love that makes it harder to say goodbye and which makes it difficult to let it go.
But more than that, i think it is the way in how the scriptwriters wrote this show and how the actors portrayed their roles that brought a sense of realness to these characters as if they really exist in real life and that makes us feel like we we really know them and that they are people who are really close to us.
I cried when Hee Joo died because i felt as if i also lost a little sister.
I smiled at Eun Seok’s rediscovery of his sense of compassion because he is a great doctor and i know that with it, he can become even greater.
I hate Saekyung with a vengeance with no need for explanations and I think Sookyung is a mother with faults but one who shows her love for her daughter in such a unique and heartfelt way that i can’t help but worry for her now that she knows of Yeonjae’s illness.
I cheer for Yeonjae to beat cancer because she has so much left to live for.
My heart skips a beat whenever i see JiWook show his love for Yeonjae because he does it without boundaries and without limits that i wish everybody could find a love like that at least even once in their entire lifetime.
I can’t help but feel overwhelming emotions of tenderness whenever i see Yeonjae and Jiwook together because their love is the kind that is supposed to last a lifetime but couldn’t.
To say that i’d miss this drama is an understatement.
I will be pining for it, longing for it, remembering it for a long time and i have a strong feeling that it will make other dramas that i’d watch after this pale in comparison because of the high standards that it has set in terms of how it has stirred my emotions.
I will truly miss a lot of things from Scent of a Woman.
I’d miss the spazzing that goes on in the soompi forums and on tumblr where i found a sense of belonging and camaraderie from everyone that share the same passion for this drama that i have.
I’d miss reading the recaps from dramabeans website the day after the drama airs and scouring each and every one of the comments to laugh at some, shake my head violently in disagreement at others and nod my head in understanding at most.
I’d miss watching the show live through livestream and reading through live comments and recaps as they come violently and furiously from one to the next that my head is almost spinning because i can’t keep up.
I’d miss Hye Won and how good of a friend she is to Yeonjae that even if she was quick to judge her at first, she’s made up for that mistake by more than a thousandfold by being so supportive to her and to Ji Wook as well afterwards.
I’d miss Ramses and Veronica and the tango studio and how just seeing Jiwook and Yeonjae together there already brings butterflies to my stomach because i know what’s next to come.
I’d miss Kang Ji Wook. A guy who can show his real feelings without fear and who is not afraid to cry in front of the woman he loves because he is man enough to admit that his tears are not a sign of weakness but rather an evidence of how much love he feels for her.
I’d miss his one thousand and one facial expressions, the look of sheer happiness on his face when Yeonjae calls him or meets him, the dumbfounded expression on his face when she does something that surprises him, the look of desire that passes over his eyes when they dance the tango or when he goes in for a kiss, the blissful smile he has on when Yeonjae is in his arms and how peaceful he looks just being with her that somehow it’s as if you can tell that he’s found his heaven just by having her in his embrace.
I’d miss Yeonjae and her courageous battle for her life and for the person she loves.
She has truly inspired me in a lot of ways and even if she’s had moments when she had shown her vulnerability and her humanity, there are more times when she made her life count in ways that are beyond imaginable.
I applaud her selflessness in making sure that in her last few remaining days on earth she had tried to make sure that that life not just remain valuable to her but that it would also leave a lasting impression and a positive change to all of the people that she will be leaving behind.
I’d miss Kang Ji Wook and Yeon Jae together.
With their love that’s formidable and so strong and that chemistry so combustible that no one can contest that no other two people belong more together and is more deserving of a life lived that ends in happily ever after.
But most of all, I will be missing seeing my OTP Kim Sun ah and Lee Dong Wook, together.
The fact that i long for them week after week after week and the fact that even just a simple gesture from them can make me smile definitely makes the waiting worth it. They have as much chemistry as their onscreen characters and it amazes me to see how they can work with such a heavy storyline and yet the moment the cameras are off, they are always shown to be having fun together and just basically caring for each other.
Yes, there were moments when this show had hurt me. In more ways than one by the amount of heartbreak and angst and sometimes disappointment that it has brought me. And yet like a lover who makes amends, along with the bitter comes the sweet and when it makes up to me, it makes it up to me in more ways than one.
Saying goodbye had never really been my strongest suit.
I’ve known since the beginning that there will come a time that all this has to end but now goodbye seems more imminent than ever.
I can’t help but feel sad about the things i’ve mentioned above which i will also be leaving behind as this show comes to a close.
But in my heart i know that like Yeon Jae’s illness, sometimes, goodbyes are also necessary in order for us to grow.
Though others might laugh at how i am so affected since Scent of A woman is just a drama anyway, it has truly changed me and it has left me with a valuable gift that i would treasure forever…
The realization that we should live life without regrets and that we should live everyday with the intention of becoming great people not just for our sake but for the sake of others whose lives we’d also touch as well…
So Thank you Scent of a Woman, Thank You Kang Ji Wook. Thank You Lee Yeonjae.
For the lessons that you’ve imparted and for making me want to make the most out of my life and for reminding me that everyday is a day that should be lived to the fullest.
Now, if you guys can just hold me while i cry and sob and undergo therapy once this show is over?