Yesterday I woke up earlier than usual. I went to our university early in the morning and jogged while memorizing the last part of my speech out loud. Usually I do one lap around our academic oval (I’m not sure but I think it’s about 2.5 km), but whenever I’m feeling lazy I cheat and use the shortcuts reducing almost half of the lap.
Yesterday, feeling lazy, I decided to do just half of the lap. But I got so engrossed in memorizing my speech that I ended up doing 1.5 laps instead. I even wanted to complete 2 lapses but I was thinking that my legs went make it anymore.
During my jog, a couple of Korean guys passed by. Actually I didn’t realize they were Korean because I was not even looking at fellow joggers. They were coming from the opposite direction. I was reciting my lines, and right after we passed each other, I heard him say “와! something something” – the rest fainted away as we jog further away from each other.
재미있어요! I’m sure he didn’t hear a lot from my speech so I don’t think his 와 is because I was doing good. I think it was more of a surprise for him to hear a Filipina muttering Korean stuff while jogging. Nonetheless it was still fun.
I managed to memorized until the end of my speech. But they all disappeared into thin air after my first class. ㅠㅠ
In our Korean class, me and a fellow participant was asked to do a demonstration of our speech. My speech was printed into 4 pages of A4 paper (double spaced, ok!). I managed to recite pages 1-2 confidently and with minimal pause – but I ended up just reading pages 3-4. What frustrates me is that I thought I have already mastered page 3 too.
Another thing I discovered, I easily panic. I think the reason why I ended up reading page3 instead was when I forgot something, I lost focus on the entire thing – I can’t pick up from where I left off and I lost all my self-esteem.
I also had a strange little stage fright. I noticed I was shaking a bit. But maybe because it was the first time I’m doing my speech in front of a crowd, at the same time I know in my heart that I’m not ready.
But my classmates’ and 선생님’s reaction made my heart grow bigger, and made me recover my lost self-esteem. 선생님 said my powerpoint is pretty, and I still have time to memorize, and told my classmates that my speech is 4 pages long. My classmates’ reaction was priceless. They laughed at the right moments. And they all were listening eagerly. When I sat down a number of them muttered “언니 your speech is really good”, “I didn’t know it was that good”, etc.
I then wanted to do much better. If there’s something I’m proud of during my demo, it was the speech’s content and my “pretty” powerpoint presentation (forget about my fluency and pronunciation). I thought, I should give justice to my speech. I should do better.
After class, I practiced alone again in our university lagoon. I repeat pages 1-2 over and over with actions and gestures. Then I re-memorized page 3.
On my way home, I’m still trying to say page 3 without pausing. The lady beside me asked me where I’m studying “Chinese”. I told her my university name. She asked me how much I’m paying for my classes. And told me to do well because it will be useful for me in the future. It made me smile (even if she thought I was reading Chinese).
I decided to spent the night with a good friend – the winner of our university’s speech contest 2 years ago. Well, she actually didn’t give me any tips nor corrections but she checks if I forget anything on my speech. At her place I managed to recite page 3 fluently and managed to connect it to pages 1-2. And even after sleeping, I still can recite pages 1-3 now with very minimal pauses. I still have to practice it though. But now I’m focusing on the most difficult part – page 4. I have memorized it, but I still have to re-memorize it.
I only have a few hours left for all the things I need to do… 아자!